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2/4/2015 4:40 AM

So vital, i need some help. Kinda. My and my gf are breaking up after 2+ years together, a house together etc. And it sucks. And im not good at talkin about it.... So thought id throw it out there and see who replies. Just chime in, whether its a simple comment, ways to keep myself distracted, a 'good luck' thing or even a how to on how to enlarge my penis. Whatever it is, throw it out there, im in need here vital!

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2/4/2015 5:31 AM
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I wipe my ass with my left hand. : )

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2/4/2015 6:42 AM
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This is where your rectum is,

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2/4/2015 6:54 AM

NewAndImprovedClancy wrote:

I wipe my ass with my left hand. : )

Try toilet paper, reduces cleaning up time.

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2/4/2015 6:56 AM

Kokxxy wrote:

This is where your rectum is,

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Im alright just using my hand on my penis for now thanks..

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2/4/2015 7:58 AM
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EddiMundo wrote:

Im alright just using my hand on my penis for now thanks..

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Better example for ya, i believe there's also a "how to fuck your own ass" somewhere on the interweb if you'd prefer that, these are just some things to distract you if you so happen to be bored with the normal hand stuff lmao


Good Luck though man, you could try focusing on riding and your goals this coming season?

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2/4/2015 8:43 AM

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Better example for ya, i believe there's also a "how to fuck your own ass" somewhere on the interweb if you'd prefer that, ...more

There isnt a chance in hell im typing that into google, thats asking for a mental breakdown.

And cheers man, bit hard to ride because its been too cold for the snow to melt, so everything is ice basically... But yeah, thats what ive been trying. Its long days at work that are slowely killing me though. Hopefully someone will catch me up so im not on my own all day

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2/4/2015 8:44 AM
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get very drunk very often. It wont end the pain but it numbs it for awhile. These things take time

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2/4/2015 10:25 AM

I've been waiting to share this with the right person....Photo

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2/4/2015 10:34 AM

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WTF HOW ARE NOT BANNED?

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2/4/2015 10:59 AM

surrealsickness wrote: I've been waiting to share this with the right person....Photo

This helped me... but not in that way.







...in a gay way.

I could get very drunk but i need to wait till friday. best not to be too hungover in work

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2/4/2015 8:01 PM

Keep ya head up man, fuq tht hoe.

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2/4/2015 8:33 PM

Where are the mods...

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2/4/2015 8:43 PM

blaaaaaaaaa wrote:

Where are the mods...

DIdn't plan on seeing gay porn today.

Now i have.

damn it.



But really I should be a mod i come on here all the time and check all the threads with frequency because i have no life. haha

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2/4/2015 9:09 PM

Okay well, to start off, welcome to what i like to call life.

I actually had come from a very similar situation. I had a stunningly beautiful, and i'm not being nice, i'm serious, ask dkTechEthan, i showed him a pic of her, or Stocksy, he actually met her. She was Asian which was a plus. Imma tell you a story man, hopefully this helps you out.

I didn't actually live with her like you did, but i ended up dating her for 2 years and a few months. Break ups are NEVER fun, unless for some reason you really hate her. So I asked this girl out after kinda making out with her after a dance and i did not know what i was getting into, although at the time i was ready to take the plunge into the dating thing. I figured, well shit, this girl is wayyy too hot to like me, so i better jump on this. Luckily i'm pretty damn smart when it comes to being in a relationship, so i knew once i had her, i had her for good. haha So within the first few months, we barely ever fought and were both getting used to each other. She had a home life i didn't know much about until i was pretty deep into the relationship. All i knew is her mom was really strict and asian and her dad was quiet and mean. So i did know by body language she was a bit confined normally and she had trouble loosening up and relaxing. I learned that a few weeks later, she calls me, balling her eyes out and telling me that her dad had beaten her and her mom and she didn't know what to do. So i do the sensible thing and get CPS (Child Protective Services) on the phone and minutes later (from what i understand) this dude is in handcuffs and everyone was going nuts.

I did that. But this Dad had some business and once it got around, less people used his services. Pretty much all my fault. But no man should ever lay a hand on a woman, not even in defense. He got off easy and they had to do family counseling. I actually haven't told anyone this story because i was with her at the time. Everything is getting back to normal and she is finally starting to understand me a little. We hit the year mark and still hadn't really had any intercourse or sexual things. Which drove me nuts. Chastity is for idiots, don't waste your time with a prudent girl, but i knew deep down she had untapped sexual desire. (weird to say but it was obvious to me) The relationship was going fine, and her parents didn't allow her to date. so they had no clue. After a few months of the counseling they had been going to, i asked her to tell them that we were dating. And to ask them if it was okay. They knew of me, but thought i was just some friend. They were like kind of okay with it but not really from what i remember. After what help i had offered her, i didn't think it would be too difficult to make it official. I fucking SHOWERED her in gifts too. Expensive jewelry, overpriced Godiva chocolate because she fancy, (i had to have dropped 1500$ on her by the end). So the parents seeing it my way went bust so we took it into our own hands. I had my mom drive me over to her house while her parents weren't home (her dad actually was just asleep is all) and i was super sketched out. It was summer but i gave it a shot. We didn't get to see each other in the summer, and i didn't know at the time, but she was DTF.

I did that and somehow escaped without waking her dad. We figured let's try again. So i went over same as last time. I'm like not as worried i guess. We were literally just about to get it on and all i hear is "BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK" her fucking dog KNEW i was in there and it woke up her dad. I didn't have a clue what the fuck i was gonna do. Next thing i know i hear him waking up and i get into her closet and under a blanket. I'm freaking out and holding my breath and i hear the dog sniffing outside the door. The dad goes "is there someone in here?" I literally about crapped my pants. She told him some lie about how there mustve been a jogger. He leaves and then i hear a crack of thunder and rain outside. I get the text that read "LEAVE NOW, RUN" and i book it out of her house, running through a field in the pouring rain. Probably the most accurate way to describe my life. haha It ruins my phone so i have no choice but to stand out in the rain and WAIT for my mom to get me. It was BAD. But one hell of a rush!!

So My senior year and her junior year starts for high school. (story continues in next page)

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2/4/2015 9:38 PM

where is the next page...

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2/4/2015 9:40 PM

Hey dude don't worry too much. I have yet to have a girl stay with me more than a month. Just try and keep your head up and move on.

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2/4/2015 9:44 PM

After all that we just did, i didn't know what i had in store for me. All i knew was high school should be a breeze this year because Senior year no one gives a fuck. Her and I are in our Madrigal Choir together, i had lead roles in all the plays that year, and it was set up to be great. I was stoked.

So i get the news probably by like fall that year that they were thinking about moving. I was not happy about this. I had turned this caterpillar of a shy girl into the social butterfly she had become. I was so proud of how i helped her spiritually and mentally and physically. I even helped her through an eating disorder. (This parental abuse had a profound effect on her entirety) She was even scared of scissors when i met her. So It was a 50/50 chance on what could happen to her moving. I loved this girl for sure. I kept hoping to myself that it wouldn't happen. But then come Christmas Time, Her family was taking a 3 week long trip to Vegas. On that trip she barely texted me and i had no clue WTF was happening. So you know, whatever. She comes back with different hair. She like died part of it another color which was strange because she was so particular about her hair. She was really cold towards me and i had not a clue why. For weeks it went on like that and i was pissed. But instead of just being like "fuck you, we are done." i got to the bottom of it. They went to Vegas to start finding a place to live. I was seriously sad about this and it explained why she had been so strange towards me.

By that point i realized our time was extremely limited. She was set to move in the summer. I made her realize that she better enjoy this relationship while it was still here instead of cutting it off early.

After that we hit a sexual floodgate and kinda got crazy. Staying up all night talking dirty, planning sexual things (in school might i add (smug face)), and it was AWESOME. We were on the same page and i was really surprised it happened so fast. It went from 0-100 in a second. haha i'm not gonna tell you all that we did because thats fucked up, lets just say it was AMAZING and i would do it a billion times if i could. My senior year was coming to an end. I barely ever had to stay in class so we spent lots of time together.

Idk if you know the song but we sang "Stay" by Rihanna and some other dude for the talent show, we were in the play together and she came to see my other plays. I was at the best point in my life. Never had everything actually been going right before like it did. I had solos in Choir, i was getting it, i was in love, and i was happy. My depression that i suffered from for so many years was gone. But on closing night of the show I was laying outside on the hot stone, it being almost summer again, she was laying there with me. It was a beautiful day. And as if the weather knew, the thunder started and then the rain. All at once. Hail and rain and i just laid there. I never cried like i had that day. It was a painful and deep cry. Making me realize that everything i had worked for was soon to be gone.

Graduation came. It was meh. Idc i kinda hated the school. but i had made some good friends that i knew i wouldn't see ever again. Prom came. It was wild and rave-like. I knew that was the last time i would see her like that so i made the best of it. I had a trip to London for graduation so i went there and all. it was pretty neat. I knew that i would have trouble contacting her while i was there. So I saw her one last time. Went to her house because by this point her family knew me pretty well. They liked me and i'd like to think they knew i was dating her because of all the presents and dances we went to. And (expensive) dates. They grew to like me somewhat. I said goodbye and hugged her. She didn't want to break up, and really, i wish we didn't. But it is better to have loved and let go than to have loved and clung on and let it get bad. So if you made it to this point in this story, good for you. We broke up June 29th. I was numb for a long time. It hurt me so bad i couldn't feel emotions. So BMX has been in the background to all this. And i had been progressing and enjoying it all. I eventually tried to jump off a giant roof that had no run up and i got hurt pretty bad, i have the scar to prove it. Its a 6 inch scar on my shin. Forever reminding me of her, of what happens when you ignore emotion. I hurt my foot pretty bad too and even every step i take i feel that pain, but not like you might think.

Sure, it sucks that i don't still have that relationship. But it is a great memory and i learned a lot. Love is a powerful thing dude. It's the deepest of all the feelings humans are capable of, it's illogical and at the same time super necessary. You can't have life without death, and you can't have love without an end. Human life has changed a lot over the years. Making love ever more difficult to find. But as a friend, and a fellow BMXer, don't worry, dude. That what you once shared is a part of you. And from that you can grow a new relationship.

The moral of this story, even though so many stories these days lack morality, this is what you can draw from it;
Love is a beautiful thing. And without love, there is no Death, nothing. All life would lack meaning. Everyone would just die and it'd end. Count yourself lucky, as Shakespeare once said: It is better to have loved and lost, than to never have loved at all.

Thanks for reading. I hope it helped. I wish someone coulda done this for me when i was where you are. Cheers.

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2/4/2015 10:13 PM

Max I just cried a little.

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2/4/2015 10:14 PM

Knew that Concerta was not for me due to anxiety. Still did it anyways for studying purposes, etc. Not a good thing for misuse, let me tell ya.

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2/4/2015 10:17 PM

Collin_McClenahan wrote:

Max I just cried a little.

Yeah. I even had to leave a little of the stuff out. 2 years worth of stuff is a lot to type so i slimmed it down to main events.

Thanks for reading dude.

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2/5/2015 12:07 AM

That was an epic story max, does kinda help knowing other people have been in similar situations. Cheers dude. Actually helped somehow haha. I dont regret any of my relationship, its just crap seeing it come to an end.
Thanks to everyone else that commented too, this is the caring side of vital that nobody sees haha.
Things are better today, talked to her yesterday as i went back to shower n shit, its like we both make great friends, so theres that atleast. But mainly just seeing that shes coping helped me alot. And my dad offered me to move back in till i can sort out my own place out which is good, cept hes on holiday for a week hahaaa.

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2/5/2015 3:44 AM

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Okay well, to start off, welcome to what i like to call life.

I actually had come from a very similar situation. I had a ...more

"She was Asian which was a plus."

Couldn't keep reading past this fucking lie.

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2/5/2015 7:41 AM

Xxohioanxx wrote:

"She was Asian which was a plus."

Couldn't keep reading past this fucking lie.

It's not a lie. I'll show you pics, and if you get on my instagram we have pics together. haha Not a lie. haha

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2/5/2015 5:01 PM

MaximusBikes wrote:

It's not a lie. I'll show you pics, and if you get on my instagram we have pics together. haha Not a lie. haha

I know from experience that that is a lie.

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2/5/2015 7:04 PM

Xxohioanxx wrote:

"She was Asian which was a plus."

Couldn't keep reading past this fucking lie.

MaximusBikes wrote:

It's not a lie. I'll show you pics, and if you get on my instagram we have pics together. haha Not a lie. haha

Xxohioanxx wrote:

I know from experience that that is a lie.

What are you even talking about? haha If you're wondering if she is asian she definitely was.

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2/5/2015 7:09 PM

MaximusBikes wrote:

It's not a lie. I'll show you pics, and if you get on my instagram we have pics together. haha Not a lie. haha

Xxohioanxx wrote:

I know from experience that that is a lie.

MaximusBikes wrote:

What are you even talking about? haha If you're wondering if she is asian she definitely was.

Jseese just likes to call asains ugly, even though he loves the azns.

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2/5/2015 7:30 PM
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MaximusBikes wrote:

What are you even talking about? haha If you're wondering if she is asian she definitely was.

You said being her being asian is a plus, when it is, in fact, not.

edit: unless you're otk

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2/5/2015 7:31 PM

blaaaaaaaaa wrote:

Jseese just likes to call asains ugly, even though he loves the azns.

This.

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2/5/2015 7:33 PM

This thread was a roller coaster.

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